Saturday Night

Another week passed, I am still blurring in my studies. All the subjects are new to me, but test is coming, on next Monday, in 24 hours time. And see what am I doing now, blogging. Haiz, the life without internet is suck, but I learn to live without it. It is not that important to me last time when I don’t have internet at home, but now that is a different case. Five week without internet but there is another thing that substitutes it. I am glad that we met. I hope we can understand each other more. Really hope so.

Although Robotics and Mechatronics is tough for me, I will try to cope with it. Hope I can get good result when the semester ends. Exam is around the corner and assignment’s due date is getting nearer. Hwaiting!!! That is the only word I can say to myself…

Week 4th

The first day of my week 4th degree, feeling sick. Coughing. Sore throat. Test is coming on next week, but i still do not understand the lecturer. So do my friends. How? I have to work hard on that and consult other seniors. Hopefully i can get the answer and make everything clear by tomorrow. Stress.

Another thing is why do i have to take five subject in the same time while my some others friend still enjoying their life by taking four subject and the chapters are repeating on each subject, not fair!!! But what can i do? I chosen this subject by my own will. Hahaz. Somehow, life is never fair.

Meet some new friends in this semester. One of them is Adden. Actually i had heard of him last semester through my friend, but we only knew each other when he move to our off campus hostel and become my neighbour. He didn't give me a very good impression from last semester. But after all, i realize that he is such a nice person too.

Hope my degree life will be much more happy, fun and unforgettable. Now, i have to concentrate on study to face my class test on week five and week seven. Hwaiting, hwaiting, hwaiting!!! Hopefully my Sibu plan on this time would not be ruined again. ^.^

I Hate Myself

When I am in this kind of situation, i really don't know what to do. I am lost, totally. I hate myself. I hate that I am being like that. Why do I put that in such an important place in my heart? Why do I care? The answer is so obvious. Everybody know, i can't lie, but he don't know. I hate this kind of feeling. I hate to see what happen right now. Mad is the only feeling. But, what can i do? Give up? Maybe that is a better way. Easy come easy go, can I? I am doubtful. Why the feeling can be so different in a same day and same place? Waiting and searching, but still, I don't get it. I hate myself!!!

Carmen's Journey

After sometime, i realize my blog named Carmen's Journey. I should talk about what i met along my journey of life, but not hoow and why i keep on staying at the same point. My future will never be an asymptote. I will get through it someday. And the answer that i am searching these days will review by itself.

Eight more days to go. And i will be back to a place that i should start a different life. New home and new stage of life-degree in Mechatronics And Robotics. How will it affect my future? Insist, i should think of how to make it lead me to a better future. A great job, high salary? Whatever. What i wish now is that how i get to find someone who can accompany me in my whole life. That is not a dream, but will come true someday. Every girl seek for that. And that is important to complete my life. May be now is not the time, but i look forward for that. As i am a Pisces, that's really important for me. Really really...

Hide And Seek

For the people who know me, and close to me. They know that i hate to play hide and seek. It is too childish for me. I got no passion on that. I like to state every thing clearly. Doubtful, not my favorite. Straight to the point is my style. Guessing and wondering, i hate that. So please be honour to me. Or else i will just pretend i don't get what you mean and ignore your tips. Continue to live my life as usual. No hide and seek. You can hide yourself forever, and i wouldn't seek for you, until you are ready to turn up.

Random

I shouldn't listen to people around me. I should decide my future by myself. Standing at this junction, i dun feel like doing anything. I would like to just stay here, pending. But i can't just stop, i have to continue my life. Time is still running. Tick tick, i can hear the clock up there. Maybe just a small break, gasping. But, what is the scale of it? How short it is? Undetermined. Direction-less. If time could stop, i wish it stop now. But if i could travel through time, i don't wanna be here anymore. Perhaps future? Or few years back then. Refuse to grow. Just stay as a little girl with nothing to worry about. Stay happy. A crazy thought. Should think of more meaningful way to go. But where? I should choose, shouldn't I? How it gonna works? Somewhere, Someone who know the answer. Someday, somebody might reveal it.