True Friend

I don't why we consider good friend as we doesn't talk much. May be we have understand each other deeply not through words. But through a link, through our heart. Still remember, during standard four, Mrs Lee wanted us to sit side by side. It is just a coincident that we met. But somehow we have become good friend. I seldom talk to her. Every time i fine her is just because i want to ask her about the homework teachers given. But who knows, we will sit together for five years. My whole secondary school life. Although we still didn't talk much, but we have become librarian together, and we joined the cadet reporter. We have gone through sad, happy, and memorable moment. Five years is too short, it passed too fast. But until today, i still feel that our friendship never fade. We still have the same thought although we have separated. I think she feel the same too. My best friend ever~ Skyan. ^^

An Ending

No matter what happen. I have finish my foundation of engineering at Swinburne University, Kuching. Our result is out today. Although i can't get a good result for that, but i am satisfied. ^^

One semester passed so fast. It was just like yesterday when i first step back on Kuching's land on 21 of March. Sitting on Melvin's car and listening to him. He was telling us about two of my friends will be back in Kuching at that particular night. Still remember i am not so close with them that time. But who knows, when the 2nd semester started, one of them become my classmate and one of them become my closest friend.

Feel so surprise when she walked into our class that morning. There was some technical problems occurred, so she and some of my friends have been given the wrong timetable. Hahaz. That's how our friendship really started. At first i just treat her as a normal friend. But after all, the whole semester had ended, i realize that she is kind of nice person. ^^

Secondly, is my closest friend for this semester. Still remember that was his birthday that night. Although he said he don't really care of it, but we have celebrate his birthday by watching movie. Is that time, when we started to become so close? Or because of the next day, when we when to Gunung Gading? But that was so many things happen between us like the rumor our friend spreaded. At first he thought i am mad, but i didn't. Seriously i am not angry of him. I just don't like people talk about me. I am not a superstar and i don't need them to spread my news. What i feel is just like that song he told me. Thank God that we still can become so close like now. No matter how, i feel glad to have him in this semester. Hope he feel the same too. (:

Of course, beside them i have three great friends who are always by my side when i need them. We when Damai together. Done crazy stuff at night. But there were still serious cases between us. Every time after chat with them my heart will feel better. Thanks them for help me keeping my secret. I will miss those days. Is a best memory in my life. I will never forget, especially when we share our 'emo' stuff. I hope they can get through what they want, same for me too. I wish our friendship can last forever. Still i have to thank the 'driver'. Hahaz.

My classmates for this semester also brought me a lot of laughter but sometimes they are just a little bit over. But still i am happy to meet them. Other than that, is my new 'daddy' and 'brother' for this semester. I will never forget what we shared. And lastly, i feel glad to finally meet with a person who play Sheng. Feel happy to share with him my experience. He is a true friend.

At last, i hope all of them will have a great future. Although we are from different places, but thank God that i have came to Kuching and meet with you guys. xD

Happy holiday. ;-)

Hurting

No matter what i have done. I feel like i am a fool. I don't want any rebate from you. I just want to be happy. I just want you to know what happen to me. You said you want to understand me more. But i didn't see what you said. What i feel is just some hurting feelings.

Every time when you tell me something, i will listen to you. When i see you happy i feel happy too. But when i tell you something, i don't feel that you are care for it. I am just like a crazy who talk to myself. I hope this kind of feeling can get away from me. I don't feel good on that.

But what to do. You will never understand what i feel. If you don't have that feelings toward me, please stop finding me. I am tired. I am not a puppet of you. Although it is hurt, but i hope this is the end.

Unpredictable

Two more days, result for foundation will be out. I am so worry. What will it be? Although i know i can't get 4.0 this time, but i still hope for it. I hope there will be miracle in this world. Same as my question, i still don't dare to ask even until today. Maybe in my heart i clearly know that the answer is a no. So I no need to ask actually. Why the question still in my heart since i have predict the answer? Maybe this is some psychology, like the book The Secret that i have read. When you think of something got to happen with all your strength, it will come true. I hope that what i am trying now will work. Hahaz. Am i a fool? Maybe or maybe not. But every time what i feel is i am like a maid. Done everything but in a very blur situation. How i wish i can make it clearer, but i don't have that courage. What i can do is wait, wait until i get the answer or until i don't need that answer anymore. Whatever, future is unpredictable. But i hope i have a great one.^^

Heart Break

Why? This is only the 3rd day i am back from Kuching. Isn't that suppose to be a happy time? Why am i feel so sad now? I feel so bad that i din teach my brother well. He is now 17th, why he still act like a child? When will he become mature? When will he realize that he is wrong? Why every time he want other people to accommodate him? I do not understand, even my little brother can think wiser than him. Sigh. I hope he will be mature someday. Don't break mom and dad's heart. I sincerely hope that!!! Hope the time will come soon...

Stone

There is some people say that lover is just like a stone. A stone that you pick up from the seaside. That is the one and only stone that you will pick in your life. You will keep it well and never return to the beach since you only need that particular stone. But what happen when you want to pick that stone but the stone is too far away from the seaside? You see it but can't reach it. No matter how hard you try, it just keep on drag away by the wave. Is that the fate that you can't have that stone, or you still need some times to work harder for it?