Random (3)

Once upon a time, i treat you as my true friend like how i treat the others. I trade my heart with you. When you are sad, i comfort you. When you are happy, we share the joy. When you are down, i promise to be at your side no matter midnight or daytime. I always forgive you when you said something that hurt my feeling, as i know that you doesn't mean it. When people said something to hurt you, i put all my effort to protect and defend you. But at the end what do i receive? Blaming from you? Hating from you? I confuse what a 'friend' defined in your heart. Anywhere, i didn't regret to meet you. Hope you will be fine on the day without me as your friend anymore.

Take care~

Never ever gonna drop a tear because of you. Jerk!!!

You successfully make me ANGRY!!!!

Watch OUT!!!

Holiday vs No Holiday

Great time always passed faster than what you imagine. My holiday just ended and i have to start my busy life again. Facing test and reports due date. Luckily i manage to complete all of them in time.

I been to somewhere near Siburan with Henry, Benji, Denis and Teck Ang last Saturday. We climbed mountain and took a visit to crocodile farm. That was the first time i saw so many crocodiles in front of me. The trip was quit fun, except that Benji injured his face. Really feel nausea when i see the blood. Luckily only injured a small part above his right eye.

Finish a whole series of drama in a few days time, it was nice to watch but i told myself not to watch any series anymore before i end this semester because i didn't do any revision or study in this whole week of holiday.

The second half of my degree first semester started, and i got all my marks for the test. Still satisfy with it, except for programming and electronics system, i can't imagine i have done so many careless mistakes for both of the test. Really feel like killing myself. But luckily i still pass all of the test. For my drawing test, the marks are posted out in a table form and everybody can see your mark through blackboard. I hate this kind of system! I don't like to let people compare my marks!

Programming's test is coming and i am still very blur in this subject. What can i do? Of course i need practice. Will start working out tomorrow, but let me enjoy tonight first.

Aza aza Hwaiting!!!^.^

Emo emo

I told myself not to emo, but i failed. I emo again. This time i found another way to express it. I brought my umbrella and start my journey to Tabuan Jaya alone. On the way, i heard "Hello" from stranger and motorcar rider. Of course i ignore it, but i feel scary about that.

At Tabuan there, I bought myself a pair of shoe. Although it is not what branded stuff, but i already feel happy because i had been searching for that kind of shoe tonnes of years and at last, i found it. What a miracle. Hahaz. Hopefully i got chance to wear it to campus one day. ^^

Finally, emo gone. But i wouldn't stop buying shoe as there are still many kind of shoe that i want to own.

Wonder which pair of Shoe can accompany me until i finish my Journey...

Doubt

Sometimes, something i should let it be. Let the doubt be doubt forever. I am tired of explanation. Nobody will understand you, and they wouldn't change their mind on you. The most important thing is you know what are you doing and that's enough. Explanation is useless. I should learn to live for myself.

Random (2)

Wake up in the morning, nothing to do, but want to finish my Japanese Drama- Hard to Say I Love You. Sometimes, it is very difficult to say out something that you really mean it. As shown in the drama, all the characters had made the same mistake, however, they realize at the end. How i wish people around me will realize it before it is to late, but it is depends on whether the timing will arrive or not.

My mom call me this morning, i didn't tell her that i am on my mid-semester break. May be in deep of my heart i don't feel like going back Ipoh. I want to stay here with no reason as most of my neighbours left. May be this is the time for my to settle down my everything. I told her my terrible marks for programming. Surprisingly she din scold me, but she said: "As long as u pass it."Wow, I can't imagine that was her who said that out. Indeed, is her.

Most of the time, I am the one who push myself to hard, may be because of my clever sister. I want to be the same as her. I rushing non-stop, following her back. May be I already pass over her, but i didn't realize it. It's time to set myself free. I should spend more time on other stuff. I promise Henry to join the first aid volunteer for the sport carnival. It is a good starting. I don't want to waste my time anymore, as i had spent more then one year for rusting in my room. It's time to work out. I want to go back to my busy life during secondary school. Although it is tiring, but i learned so much form that.

PK879, is time to send you back to me!!!^^

Gambateh kudasai!!!

Buzy Buzy Buzy Week(2)

At last i manage to finish my assignment on time, but i feel like my eye balls are dropping out. I can still feel the pain on my eyes by now even though my exam week had finish. During the exam time, i was totally tired with DRAWING!!! I didn't draw well on the test like what i have done on my assignment. May be i was too tired, really exhausted. I feeling like closing my eyes, but my mind told me not to, if not i will really die one my first year first semester of my degree. I have done many mistakes in the test, but luckily i realize after i finish my drawing and i still got some time to adjust it. Hopefully i can get the marks that i expected in order to get good a result of this Robotics and Mechatronics Project 1.(P/S: this subject is the combination of programming and drawing.)

Beside my test, i was doing three labs on Thursday. With the connection problem that my group was facing during electronics system's lab, we didn't finish our lab, and i don't know when I can continue the lab. Hopefully, my lecturer will reply my webmail soon. While, for the material and process's lab the impact testing experiment really scared me. We use a very 'laoya' machine to break the aluminium and mild steel in order to test on the hardness of the metal. Creepy sound produced and the cuter swung to a height of more than 2 meters. My heart feels like stopping at that particular moment. If somebody was standing near the machine and something when wrong, i think we will really say "Goodbye" to that fellow. Really dangerous!!!

Conclusion i have to complete two lab reports on this mid-semester break and done all my homework. No holiday at all!!! But luckily i still have some time to do window shopping with Shelly yesterday after my test. ^^

For today, i went mountain climbing with Natalie, Jun, Sum and Ben. The main purpose we went Mt. Singai is that my beloved roommate-Marilyn and Vijay are camping there. So we took the chance to visit them and have a look there. Took so many 'sakai' photos there and one more important thing, we all addicted to play MONOPOLY cards. Hahaz. That is a game for children above 8 but we are already 19. What a childish gang we are. But seriously we enjoy the great time. ^^

Hope our friendship will never end. :D

Buzy Buzy Buzy Week(1)

What a busy week, now only have some free time to update my blog. What am I doing the whole week??? Of course is studying for my mid-term exam. Initially, i suppose to have one exam on Tuesday, two on Wednesday and the last one fall on Saturday. Unfortunately, Tuesday is the Graduation Day of those degree students, so my test has to be postponed one day and the result, i have to face three test in one day. Seriously that was stressed and i was dying.

I didn't do well on these three subjects. For EM1, i forgot how to do modulus, so i think i only can get half of the total marks of that question. My ES test was not easy too, although it was in objective form and i can't even get the correct answer for the easy question!!! What was i doing??? Too stress??? Think so. While for the programming test, i only can finish one function out of three. I hope i can pass this test as i didn't even touch on it because i was concentrated on the other two subjects. Haiz, what a bad day for me. T.T

After one whole day facing with exam, i can't rest although there is no test on the other day because i have to finish my drawing assignment. I try my best but can only get 10 drawings done. Each drawing take me at least 30 minutes to finish. Imagine i have to finish 16 of them, how much time i gonna use??At the end of the week, i have to pass it up. What a stress course Mechatronics and Robotics is!!! But, what to do, this is the path that i have chosen. I have to be strong!!!

To be continue...

Random Day

Lately, i am quit emo. Emo about my assignment, test and some situation in life. But i have a new idea after reading some passages about life and i hope it will work on me, as my mood now is totally positive and energetic.

This morning i have a short chatting with my real true friend in life. She really give me a good advise. After all, i still think that i can't afford to lose her in my life. She i s too important to me. Although she is far far away from me now and she will be in a place that more far away starting from next year. But her spirit will always be with me. I really miss her so much. And here i want to thank her for her caring to me. I love u. I hope our friendship will never end. ^^

One of my friend is quit moody too. Don't know what happen to him, cheerfulness no longer seen on his face. So i decided to ask him about it. But i ended up with a reaction from him that scared me. Never see him so angry before. May be i asked at the wrong timing. Anywhere, it is just a care of me and an action that shows i am treating him as my friend. Never mind if he doesn't understand. Hope he will be fine soon. I hope to see all my friends with their smiley faces everyday.

Feeling hungry after came back form jogging, is time to refill my tummy... xP

Streamyx 2nd Day

Another new day, wasting the whole night doing nothing. I didn't study, i didn't draw my CAD. The only thing i do is eat. Arrrgggghhh, getting fat. Help!!! There was a line that my senior told me before- Eat when u feel stress, you will feel happy after that. But i feel sad now. How i wish i can throw away all the assignment and notes to start my holiday immediately. Well, life will never be easy like that. I am just dreaming. But i wish i never wake up again.

After sometimes, i think i got to stick back to that 'me' back old days. May be my life will be less complicated then. People around me are stress too, but please don't built your happiness on my wound. I have feelings too. If this is the way to make you happy, sorry i can't accept it, cause i need happiness too, not only you. So please don't be selfish. Or i should learn the selfishness...

I am no idea.. LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Contrast Day

The first day of having streamyx in my units. The feeling is happy, but i have four tests on next week!!!How i get to enjoy this happy moment??? Enjoy it together with my assignment and lecturer notes??? Sucks!!!

Anywhere, still happy enough to hear this news.

Here comes the end of week 6th, the plan to Sibu on week 8th is cancelled. Sad. Why every time i can't work out my plan? Haiz.
Not sure since when emo become my hobby, but sometimes i love being like that. So that i can stay in my little world and stop thinking of other unnecessary things. However, i still cannot shut my ears. I can only choose to ignore it to live a more simple.I hope my decision is right this time...

Raining out there, feel like going out and let the rain pour onto me or may be i can do my crying there, so that i can feel better, and nobody notice my tears...