Hurting

No matter what i have done. I feel like i am a fool. I don't want any rebate from you. I just want to be happy. I just want you to know what happen to me. You said you want to understand me more. But i didn't see what you said. What i feel is just some hurting feelings.

Every time when you tell me something, i will listen to you. When i see you happy i feel happy too. But when i tell you something, i don't feel that you are care for it. I am just like a crazy who talk to myself. I hope this kind of feeling can get away from me. I don't feel good on that.

But what to do. You will never understand what i feel. If you don't have that feelings toward me, please stop finding me. I am tired. I am not a puppet of you. Although it is hurt, but i hope this is the end.

Unpredictable

Two more days, result for foundation will be out. I am so worry. What will it be? Although i know i can't get 4.0 this time, but i still hope for it. I hope there will be miracle in this world. Same as my question, i still don't dare to ask even until today. Maybe in my heart i clearly know that the answer is a no. So I no need to ask actually. Why the question still in my heart since i have predict the answer? Maybe this is some psychology, like the book The Secret that i have read. When you think of something got to happen with all your strength, it will come true. I hope that what i am trying now will work. Hahaz. Am i a fool? Maybe or maybe not. But every time what i feel is i am like a maid. Done everything but in a very blur situation. How i wish i can make it clearer, but i don't have that courage. What i can do is wait, wait until i get the answer or until i don't need that answer anymore. Whatever, future is unpredictable. But i hope i have a great one.^^

Heart Break

Why? This is only the 3rd day i am back from Kuching. Isn't that suppose to be a happy time? Why am i feel so sad now? I feel so bad that i din teach my brother well. He is now 17th, why he still act like a child? When will he become mature? When will he realize that he is wrong? Why every time he want other people to accommodate him? I do not understand, even my little brother can think wiser than him. Sigh. I hope he will be mature someday. Don't break mom and dad's heart. I sincerely hope that!!! Hope the time will come soon...

Stone

There is some people say that lover is just like a stone. A stone that you pick up from the seaside. That is the one and only stone that you will pick in your life. You will keep it well and never return to the beach since you only need that particular stone. But what happen when you want to pick that stone but the stone is too far away from the seaside? You see it but can't reach it. No matter how hard you try, it just keep on drag away by the wave. Is that the fate that you can't have that stone, or you still need some times to work harder for it?

Question Marks

Why can't every question have an answer???

In my deep heart, there are many question marks pending to be deleted. But, when can all those answers be reviewed? Will it takes my whole life to find it out? Or will the answer come to me by tomorrow? Perhaps i should find it out by my own insist of waiting like a fool, but i am scared. I scared that i can't stand the answers. I scared those are not the answers that i want. Sometimes, i feel like i am useless. I don't dare to tell the truth. Why is that so hard for me? Even i can't answer it. How i wish i can go back to that day, and start it all over again. Maybe the situation will change. Maybe we are not what we are now, or maybe worse than that...

Father's Day

I never say i love you to my family before, but today really feel like saying it out to my beloved lou dao, Daddy I LOVE YOU!!! Saranghae, miss home a lot... T.T Thanks for bringing me up and make me a complete person~ Although now only you realize your promise, but i really feel happy about it... Juz now, i posted my comment on MY FM's DJ's wall about things that i have done with you... Still remember we do the sand fountain for my aquarium decoration competition, and i got the 2nd runner up for that competition. Thank you very much :) I am not sure that you heard it or not, but that is the only thing that i can do for you as i am far far away from home now. Happy Father's Day!!! ^^ Can't wait to go home and see my "NEW" house. Ipoh wait for me xP But before that i will stay a few days in KL. Hope i will have nice time there.