A 'W' Sign

The letters that the stars created in the night sky

I still believe that it is nit just by chance

In the same darkness, in the same distance

We are painting the W in the same way

We will shine more and more so that you can find us

Keep in mind that I love you

I wish...

Our path will cross again, I am thinking about you every time i close my eyes, you're everything

It is still natural that you are by our side

We can only wish that you are happy

We will climb our stairs one by one

We are still waiting for you, imagining our future

I wish...

Our path will cross again, I am thinking about you every time i close my eyes, you're everything

It is still natural that you are by our side

We will keep you a place here, until the day we can meet again

We believe that we can laugh together with you once again

You're my love

Please hold on

Even when the days pass by, and that there may be pains

You are always our pride

the words that murmured to the stars shining in the night sky

We still believe that it is not a Good bye

Under the same sky, dreaming that same dream

We are still searching for the W

We will always shine in the same shape

Keep in mind that I love you

I want to see you, see you

Although a 'W' may be doesn't mean anything to most of the people, for me, it does mean a lot. It is a signature of a Cassiopeia. It is how a Cassiopeia look like in the dark sky. I truly believe that they can keep on shining forever. Although without five of them , we will wait in passion. The spirit will always keep in our soul.

Always keep the faith!!! My TVXQ

Emo?

Read something that freeze my heart again. I shouldn't have that curiosity to click on that link. I shouldn't have read that passage. And now i emo again. What for to emo because of it? But i can't control myself. May be I still can't let go. But soon or later, I will. I trust myself!

I wonder what friendship mean to you, is it so easy to break a friend's heart? Or dump him/her half way in your journey? I really feel cool and shivering when I know that you still can smile when you lost a friend. Is that call cold-blooded or I should say you are childish?

Anywhere, it has come to this end and it should be end like that, we should not change the ending, and let the ending end there forever...

Random (3)

Once upon a time, i treat you as my true friend like how i treat the others. I trade my heart with you. When you are sad, i comfort you. When you are happy, we share the joy. When you are down, i promise to be at your side no matter midnight or daytime. I always forgive you when you said something that hurt my feeling, as i know that you doesn't mean it. When people said something to hurt you, i put all my effort to protect and defend you. But at the end what do i receive? Blaming from you? Hating from you? I confuse what a 'friend' defined in your heart. Anywhere, i didn't regret to meet you. Hope you will be fine on the day without me as your friend anymore.

Take care~

Never ever gonna drop a tear because of you. Jerk!!!

You successfully make me ANGRY!!!!

Watch OUT!!!

Holiday vs No Holiday

Great time always passed faster than what you imagine. My holiday just ended and i have to start my busy life again. Facing test and reports due date. Luckily i manage to complete all of them in time.

I been to somewhere near Siburan with Henry, Benji, Denis and Teck Ang last Saturday. We climbed mountain and took a visit to crocodile farm. That was the first time i saw so many crocodiles in front of me. The trip was quit fun, except that Benji injured his face. Really feel nausea when i see the blood. Luckily only injured a small part above his right eye.

Finish a whole series of drama in a few days time, it was nice to watch but i told myself not to watch any series anymore before i end this semester because i didn't do any revision or study in this whole week of holiday.

The second half of my degree first semester started, and i got all my marks for the test. Still satisfy with it, except for programming and electronics system, i can't imagine i have done so many careless mistakes for both of the test. Really feel like killing myself. But luckily i still pass all of the test. For my drawing test, the marks are posted out in a table form and everybody can see your mark through blackboard. I hate this kind of system! I don't like to let people compare my marks!

Programming's test is coming and i am still very blur in this subject. What can i do? Of course i need practice. Will start working out tomorrow, but let me enjoy tonight first.

Aza aza Hwaiting!!!^.^

Emo emo

I told myself not to emo, but i failed. I emo again. This time i found another way to express it. I brought my umbrella and start my journey to Tabuan Jaya alone. On the way, i heard "Hello" from stranger and motorcar rider. Of course i ignore it, but i feel scary about that.

At Tabuan there, I bought myself a pair of shoe. Although it is not what branded stuff, but i already feel happy because i had been searching for that kind of shoe tonnes of years and at last, i found it. What a miracle. Hahaz. Hopefully i got chance to wear it to campus one day. ^^

Finally, emo gone. But i wouldn't stop buying shoe as there are still many kind of shoe that i want to own.

Wonder which pair of Shoe can accompany me until i finish my Journey...

Doubt

Sometimes, something i should let it be. Let the doubt be doubt forever. I am tired of explanation. Nobody will understand you, and they wouldn't change their mind on you. The most important thing is you know what are you doing and that's enough. Explanation is useless. I should learn to live for myself.

Random (2)

Wake up in the morning, nothing to do, but want to finish my Japanese Drama- Hard to Say I Love You. Sometimes, it is very difficult to say out something that you really mean it. As shown in the drama, all the characters had made the same mistake, however, they realize at the end. How i wish people around me will realize it before it is to late, but it is depends on whether the timing will arrive or not.

My mom call me this morning, i didn't tell her that i am on my mid-semester break. May be in deep of my heart i don't feel like going back Ipoh. I want to stay here with no reason as most of my neighbours left. May be this is the time for my to settle down my everything. I told her my terrible marks for programming. Surprisingly she din scold me, but she said: "As long as u pass it."Wow, I can't imagine that was her who said that out. Indeed, is her.

Most of the time, I am the one who push myself to hard, may be because of my clever sister. I want to be the same as her. I rushing non-stop, following her back. May be I already pass over her, but i didn't realize it. It's time to set myself free. I should spend more time on other stuff. I promise Henry to join the first aid volunteer for the sport carnival. It is a good starting. I don't want to waste my time anymore, as i had spent more then one year for rusting in my room. It's time to work out. I want to go back to my busy life during secondary school. Although it is tiring, but i learned so much form that.

PK879, is time to send you back to me!!!^^

Gambateh kudasai!!!

Buzy Buzy Buzy Week(2)

At last i manage to finish my assignment on time, but i feel like my eye balls are dropping out. I can still feel the pain on my eyes by now even though my exam week had finish. During the exam time, i was totally tired with DRAWING!!! I didn't draw well on the test like what i have done on my assignment. May be i was too tired, really exhausted. I feeling like closing my eyes, but my mind told me not to, if not i will really die one my first year first semester of my degree. I have done many mistakes in the test, but luckily i realize after i finish my drawing and i still got some time to adjust it. Hopefully i can get the marks that i expected in order to get good a result of this Robotics and Mechatronics Project 1.(P/S: this subject is the combination of programming and drawing.)

Beside my test, i was doing three labs on Thursday. With the connection problem that my group was facing during electronics system's lab, we didn't finish our lab, and i don't know when I can continue the lab. Hopefully, my lecturer will reply my webmail soon. While, for the material and process's lab the impact testing experiment really scared me. We use a very 'laoya' machine to break the aluminium and mild steel in order to test on the hardness of the metal. Creepy sound produced and the cuter swung to a height of more than 2 meters. My heart feels like stopping at that particular moment. If somebody was standing near the machine and something when wrong, i think we will really say "Goodbye" to that fellow. Really dangerous!!!

Conclusion i have to complete two lab reports on this mid-semester break and done all my homework. No holiday at all!!! But luckily i still have some time to do window shopping with Shelly yesterday after my test. ^^

For today, i went mountain climbing with Natalie, Jun, Sum and Ben. The main purpose we went Mt. Singai is that my beloved roommate-Marilyn and Vijay are camping there. So we took the chance to visit them and have a look there. Took so many 'sakai' photos there and one more important thing, we all addicted to play MONOPOLY cards. Hahaz. That is a game for children above 8 but we are already 19. What a childish gang we are. But seriously we enjoy the great time. ^^

Hope our friendship will never end. :D

Buzy Buzy Buzy Week(1)

What a busy week, now only have some free time to update my blog. What am I doing the whole week??? Of course is studying for my mid-term exam. Initially, i suppose to have one exam on Tuesday, two on Wednesday and the last one fall on Saturday. Unfortunately, Tuesday is the Graduation Day of those degree students, so my test has to be postponed one day and the result, i have to face three test in one day. Seriously that was stressed and i was dying.

I didn't do well on these three subjects. For EM1, i forgot how to do modulus, so i think i only can get half of the total marks of that question. My ES test was not easy too, although it was in objective form and i can't even get the correct answer for the easy question!!! What was i doing??? Too stress??? Think so. While for the programming test, i only can finish one function out of three. I hope i can pass this test as i didn't even touch on it because i was concentrated on the other two subjects. Haiz, what a bad day for me. T.T

After one whole day facing with exam, i can't rest although there is no test on the other day because i have to finish my drawing assignment. I try my best but can only get 10 drawings done. Each drawing take me at least 30 minutes to finish. Imagine i have to finish 16 of them, how much time i gonna use??At the end of the week, i have to pass it up. What a stress course Mechatronics and Robotics is!!! But, what to do, this is the path that i have chosen. I have to be strong!!!

To be continue...

Random Day

Lately, i am quit emo. Emo about my assignment, test and some situation in life. But i have a new idea after reading some passages about life and i hope it will work on me, as my mood now is totally positive and energetic.

This morning i have a short chatting with my real true friend in life. She really give me a good advise. After all, i still think that i can't afford to lose her in my life. She i s too important to me. Although she is far far away from me now and she will be in a place that more far away starting from next year. But her spirit will always be with me. I really miss her so much. And here i want to thank her for her caring to me. I love u. I hope our friendship will never end. ^^

One of my friend is quit moody too. Don't know what happen to him, cheerfulness no longer seen on his face. So i decided to ask him about it. But i ended up with a reaction from him that scared me. Never see him so angry before. May be i asked at the wrong timing. Anywhere, it is just a care of me and an action that shows i am treating him as my friend. Never mind if he doesn't understand. Hope he will be fine soon. I hope to see all my friends with their smiley faces everyday.

Feeling hungry after came back form jogging, is time to refill my tummy... xP

Streamyx 2nd Day

Another new day, wasting the whole night doing nothing. I didn't study, i didn't draw my CAD. The only thing i do is eat. Arrrgggghhh, getting fat. Help!!! There was a line that my senior told me before- Eat when u feel stress, you will feel happy after that. But i feel sad now. How i wish i can throw away all the assignment and notes to start my holiday immediately. Well, life will never be easy like that. I am just dreaming. But i wish i never wake up again.

After sometimes, i think i got to stick back to that 'me' back old days. May be my life will be less complicated then. People around me are stress too, but please don't built your happiness on my wound. I have feelings too. If this is the way to make you happy, sorry i can't accept it, cause i need happiness too, not only you. So please don't be selfish. Or i should learn the selfishness...

I am no idea.. LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Contrast Day

The first day of having streamyx in my units. The feeling is happy, but i have four tests on next week!!!How i get to enjoy this happy moment??? Enjoy it together with my assignment and lecturer notes??? Sucks!!!

Anywhere, still happy enough to hear this news.

Here comes the end of week 6th, the plan to Sibu on week 8th is cancelled. Sad. Why every time i can't work out my plan? Haiz.
Not sure since when emo become my hobby, but sometimes i love being like that. So that i can stay in my little world and stop thinking of other unnecessary things. However, i still cannot shut my ears. I can only choose to ignore it to live a more simple.I hope my decision is right this time...

Raining out there, feel like going out and let the rain pour onto me or may be i can do my crying there, so that i can feel better, and nobody notice my tears...

Saturday Night

Another week passed, I am still blurring in my studies. All the subjects are new to me, but test is coming, on next Monday, in 24 hours time. And see what am I doing now, blogging. Haiz, the life without internet is suck, but I learn to live without it. It is not that important to me last time when I don’t have internet at home, but now that is a different case. Five week without internet but there is another thing that substitutes it. I am glad that we met. I hope we can understand each other more. Really hope so.

Although Robotics and Mechatronics is tough for me, I will try to cope with it. Hope I can get good result when the semester ends. Exam is around the corner and assignment’s due date is getting nearer. Hwaiting!!! That is the only word I can say to myself…

Week 4th

The first day of my week 4th degree, feeling sick. Coughing. Sore throat. Test is coming on next week, but i still do not understand the lecturer. So do my friends. How? I have to work hard on that and consult other seniors. Hopefully i can get the answer and make everything clear by tomorrow. Stress.

Another thing is why do i have to take five subject in the same time while my some others friend still enjoying their life by taking four subject and the chapters are repeating on each subject, not fair!!! But what can i do? I chosen this subject by my own will. Hahaz. Somehow, life is never fair.

Meet some new friends in this semester. One of them is Adden. Actually i had heard of him last semester through my friend, but we only knew each other when he move to our off campus hostel and become my neighbour. He didn't give me a very good impression from last semester. But after all, i realize that he is such a nice person too.

Hope my degree life will be much more happy, fun and unforgettable. Now, i have to concentrate on study to face my class test on week five and week seven. Hwaiting, hwaiting, hwaiting!!! Hopefully my Sibu plan on this time would not be ruined again. ^.^

I Hate Myself

When I am in this kind of situation, i really don't know what to do. I am lost, totally. I hate myself. I hate that I am being like that. Why do I put that in such an important place in my heart? Why do I care? The answer is so obvious. Everybody know, i can't lie, but he don't know. I hate this kind of feeling. I hate to see what happen right now. Mad is the only feeling. But, what can i do? Give up? Maybe that is a better way. Easy come easy go, can I? I am doubtful. Why the feeling can be so different in a same day and same place? Waiting and searching, but still, I don't get it. I hate myself!!!

Carmen's Journey

After sometime, i realize my blog named Carmen's Journey. I should talk about what i met along my journey of life, but not hoow and why i keep on staying at the same point. My future will never be an asymptote. I will get through it someday. And the answer that i am searching these days will review by itself.

Eight more days to go. And i will be back to a place that i should start a different life. New home and new stage of life-degree in Mechatronics And Robotics. How will it affect my future? Insist, i should think of how to make it lead me to a better future. A great job, high salary? Whatever. What i wish now is that how i get to find someone who can accompany me in my whole life. That is not a dream, but will come true someday. Every girl seek for that. And that is important to complete my life. May be now is not the time, but i look forward for that. As i am a Pisces, that's really important for me. Really really...

Hide And Seek

For the people who know me, and close to me. They know that i hate to play hide and seek. It is too childish for me. I got no passion on that. I like to state every thing clearly. Doubtful, not my favorite. Straight to the point is my style. Guessing and wondering, i hate that. So please be honour to me. Or else i will just pretend i don't get what you mean and ignore your tips. Continue to live my life as usual. No hide and seek. You can hide yourself forever, and i wouldn't seek for you, until you are ready to turn up.

Random

I shouldn't listen to people around me. I should decide my future by myself. Standing at this junction, i dun feel like doing anything. I would like to just stay here, pending. But i can't just stop, i have to continue my life. Time is still running. Tick tick, i can hear the clock up there. Maybe just a small break, gasping. But, what is the scale of it? How short it is? Undetermined. Direction-less. If time could stop, i wish it stop now. But if i could travel through time, i don't wanna be here anymore. Perhaps future? Or few years back then. Refuse to grow. Just stay as a little girl with nothing to worry about. Stay happy. A crazy thought. Should think of more meaningful way to go. But where? I should choose, shouldn't I? How it gonna works? Somewhere, Someone who know the answer. Someday, somebody might reveal it.

True Friend

I don't why we consider good friend as we doesn't talk much. May be we have understand each other deeply not through words. But through a link, through our heart. Still remember, during standard four, Mrs Lee wanted us to sit side by side. It is just a coincident that we met. But somehow we have become good friend. I seldom talk to her. Every time i fine her is just because i want to ask her about the homework teachers given. But who knows, we will sit together for five years. My whole secondary school life. Although we still didn't talk much, but we have become librarian together, and we joined the cadet reporter. We have gone through sad, happy, and memorable moment. Five years is too short, it passed too fast. But until today, i still feel that our friendship never fade. We still have the same thought although we have separated. I think she feel the same too. My best friend ever~ Skyan. ^^

An Ending

No matter what happen. I have finish my foundation of engineering at Swinburne University, Kuching. Our result is out today. Although i can't get a good result for that, but i am satisfied. ^^

One semester passed so fast. It was just like yesterday when i first step back on Kuching's land on 21 of March. Sitting on Melvin's car and listening to him. He was telling us about two of my friends will be back in Kuching at that particular night. Still remember i am not so close with them that time. But who knows, when the 2nd semester started, one of them become my classmate and one of them become my closest friend.

Feel so surprise when she walked into our class that morning. There was some technical problems occurred, so she and some of my friends have been given the wrong timetable. Hahaz. That's how our friendship really started. At first i just treat her as a normal friend. But after all, the whole semester had ended, i realize that she is kind of nice person. ^^

Secondly, is my closest friend for this semester. Still remember that was his birthday that night. Although he said he don't really care of it, but we have celebrate his birthday by watching movie. Is that time, when we started to become so close? Or because of the next day, when we when to Gunung Gading? But that was so many things happen between us like the rumor our friend spreaded. At first he thought i am mad, but i didn't. Seriously i am not angry of him. I just don't like people talk about me. I am not a superstar and i don't need them to spread my news. What i feel is just like that song he told me. Thank God that we still can become so close like now. No matter how, i feel glad to have him in this semester. Hope he feel the same too. (:

Of course, beside them i have three great friends who are always by my side when i need them. We when Damai together. Done crazy stuff at night. But there were still serious cases between us. Every time after chat with them my heart will feel better. Thanks them for help me keeping my secret. I will miss those days. Is a best memory in my life. I will never forget, especially when we share our 'emo' stuff. I hope they can get through what they want, same for me too. I wish our friendship can last forever. Still i have to thank the 'driver'. Hahaz.

My classmates for this semester also brought me a lot of laughter but sometimes they are just a little bit over. But still i am happy to meet them. Other than that, is my new 'daddy' and 'brother' for this semester. I will never forget what we shared. And lastly, i feel glad to finally meet with a person who play Sheng. Feel happy to share with him my experience. He is a true friend.

At last, i hope all of them will have a great future. Although we are from different places, but thank God that i have came to Kuching and meet with you guys. xD

Happy holiday. ;-)

Hurting

No matter what i have done. I feel like i am a fool. I don't want any rebate from you. I just want to be happy. I just want you to know what happen to me. You said you want to understand me more. But i didn't see what you said. What i feel is just some hurting feelings.

Every time when you tell me something, i will listen to you. When i see you happy i feel happy too. But when i tell you something, i don't feel that you are care for it. I am just like a crazy who talk to myself. I hope this kind of feeling can get away from me. I don't feel good on that.

But what to do. You will never understand what i feel. If you don't have that feelings toward me, please stop finding me. I am tired. I am not a puppet of you. Although it is hurt, but i hope this is the end.

Unpredictable

Two more days, result for foundation will be out. I am so worry. What will it be? Although i know i can't get 4.0 this time, but i still hope for it. I hope there will be miracle in this world. Same as my question, i still don't dare to ask even until today. Maybe in my heart i clearly know that the answer is a no. So I no need to ask actually. Why the question still in my heart since i have predict the answer? Maybe this is some psychology, like the book The Secret that i have read. When you think of something got to happen with all your strength, it will come true. I hope that what i am trying now will work. Hahaz. Am i a fool? Maybe or maybe not. But every time what i feel is i am like a maid. Done everything but in a very blur situation. How i wish i can make it clearer, but i don't have that courage. What i can do is wait, wait until i get the answer or until i don't need that answer anymore. Whatever, future is unpredictable. But i hope i have a great one.^^

Heart Break

Why? This is only the 3rd day i am back from Kuching. Isn't that suppose to be a happy time? Why am i feel so sad now? I feel so bad that i din teach my brother well. He is now 17th, why he still act like a child? When will he become mature? When will he realize that he is wrong? Why every time he want other people to accommodate him? I do not understand, even my little brother can think wiser than him. Sigh. I hope he will be mature someday. Don't break mom and dad's heart. I sincerely hope that!!! Hope the time will come soon...

Stone

There is some people say that lover is just like a stone. A stone that you pick up from the seaside. That is the one and only stone that you will pick in your life. You will keep it well and never return to the beach since you only need that particular stone. But what happen when you want to pick that stone but the stone is too far away from the seaside? You see it but can't reach it. No matter how hard you try, it just keep on drag away by the wave. Is that the fate that you can't have that stone, or you still need some times to work harder for it?

Question Marks

Why can't every question have an answer???

In my deep heart, there are many question marks pending to be deleted. But, when can all those answers be reviewed? Will it takes my whole life to find it out? Or will the answer come to me by tomorrow? Perhaps i should find it out by my own insist of waiting like a fool, but i am scared. I scared that i can't stand the answers. I scared those are not the answers that i want. Sometimes, i feel like i am useless. I don't dare to tell the truth. Why is that so hard for me? Even i can't answer it. How i wish i can go back to that day, and start it all over again. Maybe the situation will change. Maybe we are not what we are now, or maybe worse than that...

Father's Day

I never say i love you to my family before, but today really feel like saying it out to my beloved lou dao, Daddy I LOVE YOU!!! Saranghae, miss home a lot... T.T Thanks for bringing me up and make me a complete person~ Although now only you realize your promise, but i really feel happy about it... Juz now, i posted my comment on MY FM's DJ's wall about things that i have done with you... Still remember we do the sand fountain for my aquarium decoration competition, and i got the 2nd runner up for that competition. Thank you very much :) I am not sure that you heard it or not, but that is the only thing that i can do for you as i am far far away from home now. Happy Father's Day!!! ^^ Can't wait to go home and see my "NEW" house. Ipoh wait for me xP But before that i will stay a few days in KL. Hope i will have nice time there.

Weekend

Swinburne's Got Talent had over, The Elites Crew got the 1st runner up in this competition. Congrats to them, i know they have done their best on it. Unfortunately, the photo we took that night have gone. Feel so sad, how i wish i can keep that photo. But never mind, i still can keep the memory of that moment in my mind.

Last night we when for a movie- A Nightmare on Elm Street. This movie is quit scary compare to the last movie i watched in MBO. But still i can sleep so sweet last night. Hahaz. We JPA students had came out with the letter last night. Hope that JPA will concern about the issue that we are facing now, and hope that they can give us an explanation on it. But i don't think we can change anything, just hope that we have a satisfy answer from them. Most probably i will choose Mechatronics and and Robotics as it is one of the two engineering courses recognized in Swinburne University. Just feel pity and unfair for the others who can't choose the courses they want. Life is hard anywhere. Hopefully they can take the courses they want. Pray for them.

Midnight Sakainess

Now is 0121am and i am still awake. Just came back from star gazing with Vijay and Marilyn.This is the third time in the period of a week. Still remember the first day i went with Jun and Marilyn and then Han joined us half way. Tuesday night was Me, Jun and Marilyn. Hahaz. Star gazing can really release my stress, although we are not really looking at the sky. But i feel great when i can share my feelings with my close friends. ^^

Tomorrow still got lab and class, what am i doing now??? Still blogging while everybody have gone into their dream land. There will be a busy day tomorrow. Morning got lab, after that go for hair cut. Having class at the afternoon, and night will be watching Swinburne Got Talent. Once again good luck for them tomorrow. Opps is today. Now is already Friday.

Just now when Marilyn said:'we are waiting', there was a thought flow into my mind. Ya, I am waiting but don't know when it will come. Hopefully not so far from now. But i am thinking of live my life easier, just let it be. It will come when the time come. ^^

Good night~

Random

Feel guilty for what had happen yesterday, i swear i would not repeat that in the future. Hate myself to being like that. Will remind myself every time. Learn from my mistake.

Basket ball tournament ended, the team i support lose.

Today, get to know about the stupid JPA only recognized two courses in Swinburne University. Many of them were so angry. But i think that is hopeless for us to appeal, just receive what they give us. Haiz.

My Engineering Physics!!!!!! Hope that Adriana would not deduct my marks for that question which i didn't do according to what she said.

Just now, we(siao kia) went to search Corn's house. At last we found it with an aquarium in the front of his house. But he deny. What we were doing was totally sakai. May be we are too stress.

This Friday will be the competition of Swinburne Got Talent. Han, Joak and one of their friend called Ernest (if i am not mistaken) are taking part. Good luck for them and hope they will win the competition. I have faith in u guys. You guys can do it. Don't disappointed me. Hahaz. xD

Iced Mountain

Just saw Marilyn's post about iced mountain on facebook. Still remember that i told somene i want to be an iced mountain last year. I was successful, but this is no longer true when you step into my life. Do not realized how and why you can step into my world so easily without notification. I lose, lose to you. Totally. My mountain had melted by you. I can't wear my mask in front of you. No, is you who have the power which can tear my mask away. That is the real me that you have found out. What should i do? Should i freeze myself back or just let it melt? I really confuse, confuse about what is happening around me. I can't differentiate what is real and what is fake. Please, i need a light which can led my way, I don't want just to stand here and wait for the truth to reveal. I don't want to guess it. I an tired.

Assessment Week and 'Fun" Week

Woohoo, assessment week is over, i can play as much as i can in these few days ^^

Although i didn't do well for my Engineering Math B, but at least my marks still above the worse i predicted. But i cannot forgive myself that i have done so many stupid careless mistake for that paper. Next time I will be more careful.

For the Engineering Physics paper, just have it on this morning. Feel great that i got the same answers as Jun, Han and Teck Ang for on of the question. Hahaz, hopefully that is the correct answer. Luckily the questions for this time was not that difficult like last semester's final exam. Hope that i can get a better marks this time. ^^

After exam, here comes the time for fun. ^^ Tonight will follow them to go Life Group, long time i didn't go, hopefully tonight is a good night. Jun will be consulting games tonight. Wish him good luck la. Tomorrow will be going to swim in the morning. Long time didn't swim, don't know whether i can float or not. Lol. The final for the Swinburne Basketball Tournament is fall on the night. Ken is playing as the member of Acex. They will versus Duke. Good luck for him and all the other players. While for Friday night will be going to Siau Fui's place to have BBQ. I am sure this will be a fun week. ^^

Have fun friends and forget about our study on this few days.

Happy Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day. Although me and sister can't stay by her side, but hope she has a happy day. ^^ Happy Mother's Day, i will love you always xD

Still remember two years ago, Chinese Orchestra held a concert with Mother's Day as the theme. I was one of the AJK for that concert. I work so hard to sell off all my tickets just want to get two free ticket for my mom to watch my performance. That was my Mother's Day present and also my last performance with AMCCO (Ave Maria Convent Chinese Orchestra) in my life. How i wish my mom will present that night. But she just ignore me. I didn't ask why, because i am sure that she have her own reasons. But i hide myself and cry. My just tears flow out and i can't control. At last, i gave the tickets to my sister and brother.

Anywhere, hope all the mothers in the world have a great Mother's Day^^

Me

After thinking for a whole afternoon, i think i am too childish recently. I have done many childish things until I don't know who I am??? Where is the real me? I think I should find it back, before it is too late. Feel so sorry to people around me.

From now on, i will go back to the real ME. I really don't want to care too much about everyone around me. Sometimes, i should be selfish like you. Then I will be facing less problems.

Still the same slogan. Choose to be happy ^^

Choose to be Happy

After a while, i feel like i shouldn't have such a big reaction of what people said. Just let them say what they want, because it doesn't represent me. I don't need to care about what other people think of me. As long as i am happy, i will do it. So starting from now, i hope i can be what i am, i do not want to care about the stupid things that come out from their mouths. What i need to do is make myself happy, do what i want. So, i would not care how people look at me, i just care about my feeling. I am the one who can determine what i can do, not YOU!!!

So, i choose to be happy and forget about things that i don't like to listen. Who cares? As long as i am happy enough.^^

Sakainess

At last i feel the sakainess by people around me. I don't know what to say, but i just hope that everybody will stop saying like that. I know that is a joke, but i really care what people say about me. Maybe i have a 'small heart', but friends please forgive me if one day i scold you like mad. I just care what u guys said, i am like that, from many years ago until now still the same. I clearly know that this is a joke, a joke that can make people around me laugh happily, but please don't talk about this kind of issue. I do care, so stop it please.... T.T

Empty

Tomorrow is Engineering Math test, i finish my revision already, but my heart feel so empty. May be this is so call trauma. Every time before exam i sure feel very nervous. Haiz, how can i over come it?

3D in MBO

Wow, 3D movie have been out for so long and now only I watched ^^

"How to train your dragon" is so nice and funny. XD I like the dragon-Toothless. It is too cute. The most funniest part is when Hiccup's father said 'walao' when Hiccup is fighting the gigantic dragon. Last and most importantly, I feel so happy that got people treat us half price of those tickets. That is George, really thanks him. ^^

A Sad Second

Just talking, a simple talking, it makes me want to cry. I cried so badly, don't know why, i felt so wronged. Sorry that i didn't hold back my tears, i didn't mean to cry in front of you. But i can't control. My tears came out from my eyes, it flows like a stream.

Anywhere, it just a second. I regret i didn't hold it back, but i feel relief now. And i have your answer. That mean so important for me.

Sometimes there is something that can be cure by tears. Just a second of tears, can make me so happy now. So, cry when you want to. Before that you too have to think about feelings of people around. I felt so sorry, forgive me.

A day to Singapore (Part 2)

When i arrived in Sentosa Casino, i feel like going in to the casino, but too bad that the guard pointed at me when i was juz in front of the front door and said: "18 years old cannot go in, only people above 21 are allowed." Sweat a!!!! That time I am not even took out my passport yet!!!

Never mind la, I will be guilty is i gone inside. Anywhere, may be the is the fate that i will go Singapore again. ^^ Took many photo there coz that is quit nice inside, but compare to Genting Highland, i prefer Genting, hahaz.

When the time we want to get out from Sentosa, we found that the bus for coming out is free, may be that is the purpose to drive those gambling people to come out from there, hahaz. That is a good idea by consider that they have no more money left after gambling. xD

Now the time comes to send my sister to Changi Airport and say bye bye to her. We took almost one hour of LRT to arrrive at that airport. Keep on changing the LRT, MRT and Monorail tracks only can arrive at Changi Airport.

Bye bye my dear sister. Hope you arrive safely and take care.

Sister's friend told us, the simplest way to arrive at Golden Mill Bus Station is to take MRT to Lavender and than take a taxi there, but who knows that when we reach there the Taxi Stand block by something and there was not even a tax pass by. So me n mummy decide to come out from another side(left side) of the underpass. Luckily, we saw a pair of kind couple and told us the way to reach there.

Haiz, we came out again from the other side(right side) of the underpass and start to walk there. we walk across a bridge and some housing area. At last we reach there on time and go home. Phew, a breathtaking journey.....

A day to Singapore (Part 1)

Wow, after a rest finally i hv time to edit my blog...

Two days ago, i been to Singapore with the purpose to farewell my sister.... She went back to India for her degree 2rd block, so sad, sob sob.....

I reached there about 730 am.... Have my breakfast at the food court opposite the Golden Mill Bus Station. The fried eggs as hard as a stone >.<

After that, we took a taxi to a place that my mom need to confirm something.... After an hour, we walk to another destination. On the journey, i saw a Samsung building and the is a Korea plaza there.... Ahhh, how i wish i can get inside, but we were running out of time to do something important.. We also walk across the lao pa sat....

Finally, out serious job done, and we start our real journey to explore Singapore......

Firstly, we took a ride of LRT from Tanjong Pagar to Outram Park then we proceeded to HarbourFront.... From there we took a bus to the Sentosa Casino.

1st post on 2010

Looking at the last post i wrote, i feel guilty, because i only concentrate on my Chinese blog.... there was long time ago when i post my last post on last year....

Time flow...I left Ipoh for six months, when the time i came back, there were so many changes....

Is it a good news or a bad news? I don't know, but i hope it is a good news anywhere...

I met many old friends this few weeks....

1st i have a gathering with my xueji(cadet reporter) friends, that night was amazing, although i didn't see them for a long time, our relationship still there, i love it when we chatting about old stuff, hahaz... That is funny when i know that keinyau sing ACS's school song like pop song in front of everybody, xD Nearly forgot that we have composed a song for xueji few years ago^^ I moss that time alot, Beside keinyau, hann, wai meng, changhou, puisan, kahseng, sinyi, joann, sookyan, my sister, zhaoyi, raolin and ect also attended the gathering, will never forget the expansive dinner there^^

2nd there was a gathering of amcco chuiguan(blow instrument) n retart king(excluded) during waileng's birthday......miss that time we practice together and went for competitions in Genting, Penang and China^^ Feel great when we got the gold medal award.....

3rd two of my collage's friends come from kedah to visit me, gobi and sum..... we went hiking at Bukit Kledang which i would not be there frequently~

4th Today, back to my school, Ave Maria Convent, which i have my kindergarten, primary and secondary school there~~Meet a lot of juniors there, there were too many until some of then i can't even figure out their name, hahaz.... Saw Mr lim and chit chat with him for a while...the weird thing is the new president introduced me and my sister in front of every member of amcco ><>

All the best for them^^ Juniors, hwaiting!!!